I remember passing by an old woman who reminded me of my grandma (who passed away a long time ago) and was pushing a heavy cart bursting with bags full of recyclable bottles and cans early in the cold morning and realizing how much I was steeped in the sin of capitalism. It was not just the irony that I sipping on a cappuccino and wearing a dress with money that would've meant so much to her to go work for a government agency aiming to help these people, it was that, even if I were to give all that money to those in need and more, the poverty and hunger would never end, and that it was by design. On one hand, a part of me thinks, all I can do is living in this moment and doing my best. On the other hand, one can only sustain whatever marginal effort against this political, economic, environmental, and social crisis for so long when, without a bigger push accompanied, it at best seems self-gratification. This piece felt like a dagger through my heart. Hope you get some much needed rest for now, take care of yourself.
“The problem with the comfort of before is that it brought us directly here.“ 😥
Damn. Nailed it.
I'm glad you are taking time to care for yourself and I can't wait to see what's next.
I remember passing by an old woman who reminded me of my grandma (who passed away a long time ago) and was pushing a heavy cart bursting with bags full of recyclable bottles and cans early in the cold morning and realizing how much I was steeped in the sin of capitalism. It was not just the irony that I sipping on a cappuccino and wearing a dress with money that would've meant so much to her to go work for a government agency aiming to help these people, it was that, even if I were to give all that money to those in need and more, the poverty and hunger would never end, and that it was by design. On one hand, a part of me thinks, all I can do is living in this moment and doing my best. On the other hand, one can only sustain whatever marginal effort against this political, economic, environmental, and social crisis for so long when, without a bigger push accompanied, it at best seems self-gratification. This piece felt like a dagger through my heart. Hope you get some much needed rest for now, take care of yourself.